What if your wish list would become your to do list?

I was thinking today on wish lists and to do lists. They are both the same type of life-happening lists, only that on the to do list we may have things that we don't like and really want to do. Also the one on the to-do list are more urgent then the one on the wish list. Anyways I was thinking, what am I waiting for to put all the wish things on the to do list? What's stopping me to have it all now and what's in the way?

First that came to mind was of course the classing excuse: no time and no money. Aren't this the big stoppers in our lives? If I would only have the time or money to do it... I noticed thou that actually those are not the cause for me not having my wish list on the to do list. If I have to fix my car, like my break just starting whistling on me the other day, the time and money becomes an non issue instantly. I got to fix my car, so I just made time and I just made a budget for it. Just like that. What I sow was that what had me create a space for that to happen was simply of matter of prioritizing as a thought in my head, and not the time/money situation as I thought it is.

If it's just a matter of creating an urgent priority thought in my head, then I could basically create that for any item on my wish list, couldn't I? I could. So what's in the way is not really the lack of time and money, but rather the reasoning thought that I lack those. It's not real, as when my car started making a noise, the time and money become available right away without even further consideration. So I already had the time and money but I related to them as they are not accessible and made that be my reality.

Are the reasoning thoughts really what has us not get the life we'd love to live? How do I create an urgency for the wish list to become my daily to do list? Does my car needs to break to have it taken care of? DO I need to reach 200pounds to seriously start considering dropping the extra weight that it's been piling up? Do I have to be really truly miserable at work to leave it for my dream job? Do I need to run myself down to create the urgency to build me up?

Obviously this is the way I've been operating. Does it "need" to be like that? Well, not really! There's no "need" to be any other way but what I choose to. To me, it's quite free-ing to realize that I do have the time and money if I would only relate to something as being demandingly urgent.

So what I'm up to next is to bring that to my wish list, and make a priority out of creating a life to passionately and madly fall in love with...

Lady Gaga's interview opened up a new mental space for me

I watched an interview last night with Lady Gaga. Now this is not something that I would normally do, but I was looking to watch something different. Well I must say it generated thoughts for me that literary created a new reality to live in. I felt deliberated from old mind patterns and tried on new thoughts.

"I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love"

The way she was explaining lyrics like this opened up something new for me. To me what she was saying on loving wholly was about expanding and taking ownership on the way we see the world. I got present that I have sooooo many pre-fabricated ideas, like how love is suppose to look, how life is suppose to turn and how things are suppose to run. Do you know what I mean? I really sow how many of my thoughts are not original but rather "borrowed" from my surroundings.
 
What if I create a world where there's no prerequisite expectations on "how to" love? A reality in which I could love even the parts that you think no one would ever love about you, the ugly and the disease? It's pretty much loving unconditionally, isn't it? What if I would create my thoughts to be empowering me at all times and in any circumstances?

I am the creator of my own occurring world after all, "ain't" I?

decluttering my to do list

I just had a thought today, that I'd wish to finish everything that I proposed myself to do by the end of the year. You know, anything from painting the kitchen, redecorating the bedroom, selling some old stuff or losing 20 pounds - to seeing a good opera or throwing that cool awsome party. Anything really, that could physically happen within 50 days. All those things on the to do list that are moving from one day to the other, or get dropped between the lines.

What are the things that you always wanted to do but you're keep procrastinating on? I invite you to join me and pledge to a 50 day journey to complete 100 things from the "to do list" by the end of the year. What difference would it make to you if you could cross out 100 things from your to do or wish list?

Well I can tell you one thing, would be a hell out of a de-clutter to get rid of any of these annoying things that are keep popping out in my mind to have them done. Would definitely clear up some emotional and mental space!
I'll start my 100 things list in random order here:

1. renewing my Romanian passport (requires traveling to Washington)
2. going to see the Dali show at High Museum of Art
3. painting up the living room
4. cleaning the carpet
5. throwing an art party where you get to paint and take home your own painting
6. getting tickets for the Nutcracker
7. posting unwanted stuff for sale on craigslist or eBay done!
8. getting a bookshelf for my growing collection
9. fixing my car in the works!
10. organizing my office file by file in the works!

11. putting my kids on in ballet class/ gym class
12. creating artworks for all my frame collection
13. organizing my closet half way there!
14. dropping 15 pounds
15. getting a new bed!!!!!
16. writing 10 poems and joining a read aloud group on meetup.com
17. designing new business cards
18. understanding my daughter's DSI game (reading the manual, oh I suck at electronics)
19. creating a shopping cart for my art website to sell my paintings in the works!

20. calling my old friend to catch up
21. start using my gym subscription
22. visiting a chiropractor for my back pain
23. installing the software for my mini digital camera
24. reinstalling the operating system to my desktop
25. getting a new hammock
26. painting my kitchen cabinets inserts with chalkboard paint
27. getting a new lamp switch for my lamps
28. going on a bicycle ride with my kids
29. finish up the last book I've started reading
30. organizing my computer files

to be continued...

decluttering part three

I've donated about 5 huge bags so far of clothes my family and I were not really using. I can't believe we had so much stuff that was not used. It's crazy. I've been complaining for not having enough but actually I was overloaded. Then couple of more bags with toys that were sitting under the bed, or in the back of the closet. I suspect that I could get rid of even more...

It feels amazing, like I got rid of a big load of heaviness off my back!

What I found it was quite difficult in this process is deciding what to keep and what to let go. I thought it's going to be easy like go in, discard them and done. Not so easy: each item end up being evaluated and reevaluated quite few time. "Would I not need it at some point? What if it comes back in fashion? This one is so cute! Maybe I can wear it again if I drop 20 pounds! Oh, wow, this is way too adorable! Could I make a pillow out of this??" Question were pouring down. Then I really got how attached I am to things. So attached that I was holding on to unnecessary stuff, weighing down my closets.

I'm up next to go trough all my art crafts, paintings, sketches, notebooks, salvaged pieces. That's part of my work stuff. I know it will be hard to part ways to little snippets I am holding on for years.

And to think that a year ago, when I moved from New York City to Atlanta I got rid of half my stuff. How quickly can I pile it back up!

declutering part two

Here's the deal: no more processed food, no more artificial anything, just fresh, locally grown if possible, produce in as un-altered state as possible. 80% vegan - 20% of animal descendence. Whole grains, raw nuts, vegetables, fruits on the large side and yogurt, eggs, fresh meat on the short side.

Here's what I came with from the supermarket. I live in Sandy Springs , GA and I yet to find a real farmer's market, the kind that you go on the street to bargain for a fresh product. Let me know if you know where! I used to go to that big mexican farmers market and realized that all those vegetables were brought in frozen, shipped in huge containers months ahead. They would go bad one day after you brought them home. So that does not work for me.

I found this amazing recipe for a Madrid Gazpacho Soup. This soup is an easy, raw, blender soup. Blend 3 large tomatoes, 2 cucumbers, 1 red pepper, and 1 small jalapeno pepper. Add 1 quart of distilled water, 3 tablespoons olive oil, the juice of 2 lemons, 1-teaspoon ground cumin, 2 teaspoons sea salt, and add garlic to taste. I did not think this could taste so delicious. I'm very excited about this find.

Going forward on the journey of decluttering, I'll keep you posted.

decluttering my life

I've started recently on a journey of uncluttering my house. You know, get rid of all that unnecessary stuff, used once-in-a-blue-moon-items and unusable leftovers. Along the way, I realized that there's more clutter in my life then just inside my house. I looked at my eating habits and I sow the clutter of processed foods, artificial simulated aromas and sweet junkies. So I started thinking of decluttering my inside space too. With that intention in mind, I started seeing more clutter: the emotional one this time bursting out - emotions and feelings that I may have suppressed or ignored, or pretend they don't exist. I could not stop now so going further I had to notice the mental clutter: all sort of thoughts that I've been holding on to for a while, disempowering internal conversations, judgmental debrief and not very nice cramped jargons. I sow then the habitual clutter: senseless routines gathered along the way that I was holding on to thinking that they define who I am, then some habits that I did not really love, still took on along the way.

So I'm now embarking on a journey of fully decluttering my life, one item at a time, one thought at a time.

Day 214, 101 days to go. Surround yourself with amazing people.

I've been working at empowering people, being an unwavering stand for them to believe in themselves and their dreams. Their potential is so obvious. However these people are so enrolled in disempowering conversations about themselves, are so defensive, and so confronted when someone would just not take their crap for real. They take offence for being confronted on their amazingness. You have anyone like that in your life? I feel you, it takes a huge commitment to be a stand for people being amazing when they pretend not to know that about themselves.

So I had a new thought this evening. I'm thinking to surround myself with fulfilled, committed, powerful, nurturing, happy people who live amazing lives already and are in touch with their possibilities now. I want for a change to expand myself by partnering with the one who are in alignment with themselves. So I decided to look for and hang out with such. When you surround yourself with amazing people the sky is the limit. I heard once Oprah saying a wise thing: “Surround yourself with only people who are going to lift you higher.”

I believe that the biggest adventure one can take is to live the life of their dreams. Living outside this adventure is like dyeing before your life is over.

So powerful courageous fearless people out there, here I come!